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Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Hello people.Common Test is coming soon.
Talked to Megan.
Today something happened.
And that person knows it.
That person, made me wait such a long time.
And I was even worried that THAT particular person overslept.
So I tried means and ways to get through to her.
Calls, messages.
Nothing.
Reached school, and first thing i saw that person holding was HANDPHONE.
Couldnt that person have replied me?
I know Im not myself anymore.
I know , I know EVERYTHING.
I know what people's views are about me.
I know what wrongs I did.
But its too late.
And since I knew you guys for so long, why couldnt you have told me the truth straightaway and make me turn back to the right track again?
But what i HATE most is deceptions and lies.
Yet, sad to say, everyone puts on a mask before my very own eyes, and I witness them staging a play for me.
At first, sure, I trusted the characters.
But soon everything changed.
That unhealable wound seems healed, but its not.
Its a bottomless pit.
A deep wound that cant be healed forever.
Whenever I am starting, or tried to put everything out of my mind, and my head is almost cleared, people will mention that taboo word.
Yes.
And it bleeds even more.
Sometimes, Its so hard, that I cant do anything right.
If there is such a thing called peace of MIND, I would really like to have some of it.
Even if it is just for one second, a fraction of a second.
Time heals everything.
But, how much more time do i need to forget the things that happened?
Tomorrow, I will start from the very beginning.
I will be very still, very quiet.
And keep everything to myself.
I will be emotionless.
And be a neutral person.
I dont know what to do anymore, so maybe that's the best way to regain my coolness.
Who knows, maybe one day I will be good enough to leave the audience and join back the play?
No matter how hard it bleeds, I would have to act like nothing happened.
(:
From now on, I will never be in a fight with anyone again.
I wont.
If they want to pick a fight with me, I will smile, and walk away.
Even if they raise their voices at me, i will smile, and walk away.
I will take back all my trust on people, and judge them with new eyes again.
Hopefully, one day, I can really get out of this constant hell.
And regain peace, with my healed wound. (:
Alright.
I still have co tomorrow.
WOOHOO.
:D
My seniors, at least, are some thing worth looking forward to.
Haha, cant wait to see Sarah's worksheet!
x]
Name: [date]
Date: Sarah SHIT
HAHAHAHAHA,
:D
THANK god she doesnt know my blog.
Else SHIT2 is going to get killed by SHIT tomorrow. (:
Okay.
Annyeongki haseyo.
(;
Goodnight.